Realizations

In the midst of having a conversation with one of my (few) close friends, I came to realize I am in love. Really, truly in love.

While complaining about my boyfriend's (who shall remain nameless at this point in time) concentration on his studies (and not on me) at the moment, my friend asked "Are you having withdrawls?" I realized that, yes, I was. As much as this is against my self-determination, the fact is true & there is close to nothing that I can do about it. Especially since the feeling is mutual & it being true even more so in his behalf. I really do not know what to do about this considering: 1. He, himself, is away at college (about 4 hours away from my current place of residence) 2. I, myself, will be off at college in a matter of 6 months (a span of 8 hours between our respective schools) and 3. For me, college is a new beginning, a place to break all ties away from your hometown, start fresh & invent yourself . The timing for all this is just horrible at the moment. Had this had happened one, maybe two years ago I would have been ecstatic. But now is just not a good time.

What to do? What to do? I just don't know.