Done.

With one of the biggest milestones of the teenage years accomplished (High School Graduation)... I don't feel much different, except for some cash in my pocket & some cake in my tummy. Maybe because I've basically been done with school for a month now.. Maybe it's because I'm just ready to move on to bigger and better things.. Or maybe it's because after the past two years.. High school has meant nothing to . Either way.. the sadness of never seeing the majority of the kids in my graduating class never once reached me... my eyes never welled up, nor did my throat start to close nor my voice start to crack. Instead, I felt thrilled to leave the prison I've spent the last 4 years of my life encaged in and ecstatic to depart from the company of the immature, obnoxious children that I have had the dishonor of having to deal with. This being said.. I'm glad it's over and I'm ready to move on to bigger and better things. This might not be the case in time, but I will cross that hurdle when I come to it. Next step: (real) College & I cannot wait. August 25: Please hurry!

Only Time Can Tell

Have you ever wondered why certain people come into your life.. Some to better it, and others to make you stronger. This has been a prevalent thought that has been shuffling through my mind quite often these days. Three weeks or so ago I started talking to someone... Not your typical male to approach a 18 year old girl & give them their number.. Not thinking much of it I got up the courage to text this person figuring it would be nice to have a simple conversation with someone new. Little did I know that that conversation would escalate into what it has. From getting to know one another to casual dates, feelings becoming involved, an issue of time and commitment. Many would call this summer fling a recipe for disaster (which it might be) but I am young so I'll do as my heart desires. At times, I feel bad but that's only natural.. feeling like the barrier between a healthy and non-healthy relationship. Other times, I don't as I'm told "You make me happy, everyone deserves that right?" Knowing that there's that one guy that is completely in love (and obsessed) with me, he feels bad too, knowing we cannot be commitedly together due to the circumstances. Still, we make what we can out of the situation, enjoying each other's company night and day alike. What this relationship (if you can even call it that) will prove to be.. Only time can tell