Motivation

Why is it that whenever we are upset or someone hurts us, we are not motivated to do anything? We don't want to get out of bed. We just want to lay around and watch Netflix all day? We just leave the house to get fast food and repeat. How is it that the actions of others have such an influence on how we feel? How do we make it stop? Why are so attached?

You and I

Are you happy? Are you not? Do you want me? Do you not? Are you honest? Do you lie? I want you, almost need you but I don't like it that way. I want to be able to keep you off my mind like you do me, but I can't. I try. It does not work. I want to keep you off my mind. I don't want to be jealous, but I am. Your interest in other girls kill me, my heart is so fragile. It doesn't seem like you care, even when you say you do. Is time apart what we need? It's been three years and counting. I don't want to push you away but I don't know what else to do. Everyday I think about you. Do you feel the same way? What's the next step? Do you see a future?

Body Art

I am thinking of getting a tattoo. Maybe today, maybe not. A certain someone who I'm in a relationship with says that I need to learn to be more happy. I thought that I was a happy person, but this person would beg to differ. After some soul searching, I think they may be right. That's why I was thinking of getting a tattoo with the word "Happiness." To remind myself of what I need to strive for each day. Where would I get it? My wrist or maybe my ankle?

"The Entitled Generation"

In my short lifetime of 21 years, I have overcome a lot of of odds.
I am African American.
I am a female.
I am from a low-income household, who was effected terribly by the recession.
I am from a single-parent family with an absent father.
I put myself through school working up to 3 jobs at one time.
I am college educated.
I have a full time job
And finally, I am 100% financially independent.
I have done all of this on my own and have asked no one for anything.
I don't feel that anyone owes me anything and have worked hard for all I had.

For a woman in my Master's level to claim that everyone in my generation believes that they are entitled is an insult. Our generation is full of some great people. The negative attitudes of a few interns or entry-level workers should not influence a person's perception of a whole generation. I would think that a professional in a class for those that are, inspire to be, or have been human resource managers. I guess some people, no matter how educated they are, don't see all side of a situation. They want to think what they want to think. They want to downplay and believe the worst in other people. The fact is just so sad.  

I'm Ready

An old post of June of 2011. I never posted it, not sure why. But I like it. It really makes me think. Have I accomplished all of this in the three years since my high school graduation? Since then, I've graduated college, got a full-time, have been in a 3 year long-term relationship and started my Master's degree... But have a really made life the best? I feel like there is still a void. Like I've yet to accomplish something with a deeper meaning. There is still time though. At 21, I still have so many great years ahead of me. I just have to take control of my own life. A life that I know can be great, worthwhile, and meaningful.

Ready to make the departure, Ready to leave the nest
Ready to make new friends, Ready to make life the best
Ready to start anew, Ready to leave this town
Ready to enter the real world, Ready to conquer new ground

Change

Two years later, you might ask what has driven me to return to Blogger. I want change. I want to change the way by which I live my life. I want to be more positive. I want to be a better person, not only for myself but for my relationships (especially my intimate ones). I want to stop living in the past and start living in the future. I want to see that glass half, not half empty. I want to see the brighter side of things and have a positive attitude. I want to learn not to complain, but to change the way I think and react. Life is too short.