You and I

Are you happy? Are you not? Do you want me? Do you not? Are you honest? Do you lie? I want you, almost need you but I don't like it that way. I want to be able to keep you off my mind like you do me, but I can't. I try. It does not work. I want to keep you off my mind. I don't want to be jealous, but I am. Your interest in other girls kill me, my heart is so fragile. It doesn't seem like you care, even when you say you do. Is time apart what we need? It's been three years and counting. I don't want to push you away but I don't know what else to do. Everyday I think about you. Do you feel the same way? What's the next step? Do you see a future?