Lily Rose

A dream is a  form of thinking that occurs when there is a certain, as yet undetermined, minimal level of brain activation.  People have some of the most random dreams, especially during the teenager years. I don't think I've ever had a more descriptive, detail filled dream in my life. It was about three days ago when I woke up wondering why such a thing would make itself apparent in my subconscious mind. Having a vivid flashback of a story that seemed to span over years, all in one night's dream... Here is how it all started...

For two weeks straight I'd woken up running straight for the bathroom, hoping to make it without hurling all over the place. This morning was no different, I just knew this bug would be gone soon, hopefully sooner than later. But HE was convinced that it was not the bug at all, HE was convinced I was pregnant. "You are crazy there is no way," I argued every time the matter was brought up. Making up an excuse to go to the store that morning, HE made his way out of the house & returned with not one, but two pregnancy tests. Being the happily engaged and all I figured it would do no harm in taking the test & making him happy. So I  took the boxes, opened them up, read the instructions & so forth.. after the longest five minutes or so of my life, I read the test. A smiley face.. See I wans't pregnant... Now off to go rub it in HIS face. While blabbing about how I knew is wasn't possible.. blah blah blah... HE took me in his arms & kissed me "We're having a baby sweetheart," he said. "WHAT?" I exclaimed, a smiley face means your pregnant. I ran in the bathroom again, quickly taking the other test & the fact was confirmed. I was having a baby.

Hand in hand, we went to every doctor's visit, parenting class, & birthing class together, beyond anxious to discover if we were having a boy or a girl. I wanted a girl & HE wanted a boy of course. Deciding not to choose names until our first glance at the precious newborn. Finally the day came, betting on our opposing sexes, $20 for me if it was a girl, $20 for him if it wasn't. Finally the time came, and we were having a girl. I couldn't have been more proud, more excited than ever for the birth of my first child. HE was excited too though, out of the corner of my eye I could see HIS beaming smile.

A week or so before the due date, I was at home just sitting around watching the usual chick flick on Lifetime, when I started to have these horrible pains, almost to the point of being unbearable. I called for HIM, telling him that I thought it was time. So HE helped me to the car, where my bags were already packed & we made it to the hospital in record time. Nurses were at the Emergency entrance waiting for me as we pulled up, while they helped me into a wheelchair, I realized how nervous I was, but also exited, as well as anxious about seeing my new baby girl. They contractions were getting stronger and stronger as they became closer together. I told the don't doctor I needed drugs, very strong drugs because the baby was coming. While the doctor went off to get a few things ready for the birth, HE took my hand & told me "I couldn't be more scared, excited, anxious, happy, and pretty much every other emotion possible to be having this baby right now, but it couldn't be with a more better woman than you. I love you." I was truly touched, and with that, the doctor returned and said it was time. HE took my hand and didn't let go. From there, I pushed & breathed like I'd practiced so many time before. The routine was so ingrained in my mind, that it seemed the birth was just as easy as the rehearsals. In what seemed like no time, she came out more beautiful than imagined. The perfect combination of genes my eyes have ever pictured. She was perfect, beautiful, amazing. She was Lily Rose Padgett.